Bloggin' With Bitchass

I've decided to post this now, because as it gets closer and closer to Christmas, I may get too rushed, and end up not saying things exactly as I intended to.

As many of y'all know, this past year has not been the best for me in a lot of ways, especially in the last month. Thanksgiving was not the yummy "eat everything in sight" holiday that it always used to be, and Christmas is looking like it's not gonna be much better. But there is something that happened to me in the last six months that has made all the heartache bearable. Let me try to explain what that was before I get myself crying.

In June, my friend Krissi told me about this cool site with a great chatroom called "Women On Top". She gave me the url of an entry portal, and because of the name (www.suckpatrol.com), I had a struggle with myself trying to decide if I really wanted to go into the chatroom. But I won, beating out me by a slim margin, and went in and started hanging out in the WOT chatroom with Krissi and a whole bunch of new people, and even developed some pretty close friendships with a lot of them, Mistresses and subbies alike.

I had always been kinda self-conscious and shy in chatrooms in the past, usually lurking and not saying anything. But this time I decided to just be myself, have fun, and if anybody didn't like it, they could pound sand up their ass. So with this attitude in hand, I embarked on my journey through WOTland.

After wandering in the chatroom wilderness for a while, I happened upon a Goddess who's picture I had seen on her bio when I had first started exploring the place. Her name was MsGrace, also known as Princess Grace, and I began seeing her in the chatroom quite a bit. She was so full of energy and seemed to love having fun with the roomies. I remember thinking how beautiful she was, but my pessimistic side stepped in and whispered in my ear, "hey asshole, don't waste your energy... you know she's not gonna take the time to even say hello to you!" So, I went about playing in the room, even bravely saying hello to MsGrace whenever I saw her. The more I saw her in chat, the more I liked this Mistress. She was always friendly to me and willing to engage in conversation. I also started to listen to her MP3s and was floored by her voice. You could easily get lost in it and it melted me right away.

So at that point I decided to get even more brave, and kicking Pessi-me in the ass, I sent MsGrace an email. To my surprise she answered, and from then on, we started exchanging pretty regular emails and Instant Messages, mainly getting to know each other and making each other laugh a lot. I came to her for advice on things that were happening with me and the advice I got back was always perfect. I was struck by how genuine she seemed to be, and she really seemed to care about me. She helped me through a particularly rough time at one point, and with Pessi-me still whispering, I decided that this was the Mistress for me... I just had to find a way to call her that wouldn't get me thrown out of the house. She had me hooked and I knew it. And we got closer and closer.

I had noticed that she seemed to have a group of subbies who she called her "pets", and I wanted in that group in the worst way. This was obvious to Princess, and she seemed like she was pretty receptive to the idea. She started sprinkling in the phrase "you're Mine" pretty regularly, but I had been listening to Pessi-me for so long that I just couldn't be sure if that meant what I hoped it meant. I guess I needed her to grab me by the umm.. throat and yell it in my ear before I would be convinced. The uncertainty was put to rest when I finally had a chance to put a call in to Princess. After the call, I finally knew in my mind that I was hers, and officially a pet.

I still had moments of doubt here and there, as Pessi-me was more than willing to point out, but all the while, Princess and I became closer. What finally convinced me that this was really happening and that Princess was serious, was when she gave me the name jem_takenbyPrincessG to use in the chatroom. Pessi-me permanently got the boot out the door, and I was in Pet Heaven.

So this brings us up to the present, and why I wanted to post about all this. I wanted all of the readers of my blog to know, and I especially want Princess to know just how much she means to me. She is much more special and precious than you could ever know unless you happened to be one of her pets, and I'm sure the rest of her pets feel the exact same way. I don't care if I don't get a single Christmas present this year, because I already got a present that is far better than any gift I could ever ask for, and that is when she told me I was Hers. If I could get greedy and just ask for one more thing though, it would be that Princess will still want me around next year at this time. It's up to me to be honest with her, respect her feelings, treat her as she deserves to be treated, and be there for her when she needs it. If I can do all that, maybe Princess will keep my collar locked on nice and snug and will keep a tight hold on the leash.

That's how I feel about my Mistress, the amazing Princess Grace....

Merry Christmas, Princess.......

little bitchass


P.S. I purposely left out a lot of details in order to keep the post to a reasonable length. You can see more of those details if you read back through some on my past posts.