Here's The Latest In My "Better Late Than Never" Tease Time Posts...
I arrived in the Community Kink Chatroom a few minutes early on Thursday night, and was pleasantly surprised to see that Stroke Princess Ms Grace was already in the room and warming up the crowd (which is very VERY easy for Her to do, BTW). I could tell from the start that we were all in for trouble, when Princess informed us that She was a "widdle bit tipsy" from tossing down Bloody Marys at the local church's bingo game. OK... I lied about the church bingo game part, but it sounded funny to me when I wrote it.
Of course, Her being there before me threatened to throw off my always meticulously planned "Twirl Maneuver", but I managed, with crackerjack timing and a resolve that surprised even myself, to twirl Princess around the room and even got Her trademark "WEEEEEEEEEEE" in response! Not bad, considering that on Thursday night I had been locked down by Princess for 41 days.
Ms Cassandra was in attendance, as well as Her pet, chaste4MsCass. The big bombshell that was dropped here was that chaste was not gonna be held in his cage for a whole year like I originally thought, but instead was gonna be let out soon. Of course, this was a huge disappointment to me, because I was just starting to enjoy being able to tease and laugh at chaste, who up until now was sure as hell gonna be locked down a lot longer than I would be. Now he's gonna be laughing at me instead. Oh well, I suppose that's the way the key bounces sometimes. ::sigh::
The chatroom filled up quickly, and while I was still able to pay attention to the room count, it reached 29 and stayed pretty constant for the rest of the chat event. It may have gone higher, but then the Stroke Princess brought out a new MP3 for all of us to listen to, and after that all bets were off as to my ability to function. Oh yeah, this MP3 is THAT GOOD! I went subterranean after just a few minutes of Princess' voice.
The MP3 that She posted in Her blog on Thursday night was the first of 3 parts, and was called "Working Lunch". Part 2 and Part 3 were gonna be posted in the Cockcontrol Sound Forum the following day. Because I've been so busy with getting my vehicle fixed and with working, I didn't get a chance to listen to Parts 2 & 3 until today, and I was a basket case of need and want by the time I finished listening. I thought I had been doing a pretty good job of dealing with being locked up this time, but the house of cards collapsed today with a loud crash. I was rubbing the CB2000 so much while I was listening that I think I could've had at least a ruined orgasm if I hadn't stopped. Why did I stop? Because I know Princess loves it when I get to this wall-climbing stage, and I didn't want to disappoint Her by having to tell Her I couldn't control myself.
Anyway, the rest of Tease Time was kind of a blur to me, and I think it was mainly free-form chatting, along with a healthy dose of teasing on Princess Grace's part. Maybe BillyBear or one of the other chatters present that night can fill you all in on any important stuff that I'm leaving out. I do know that it was over all too soon, but that I had a great time as always, even if I did find myself sitting there drooling and with a vacant look on my face after Princess left the room!
See you all at the next Chat Event!
I wuvs my Princess Grace!
little bitchass
2007-09-29
2007-09-23
Sunday 2 For 1 Special!
This week has been a busy one for yours truly, and I still have a lot to do this weekend, but I just had to blog about a few things that happened on Thursday and Saturday nights!
If you've been following my postings recently, then you know that besides going to the experimental Jem-ku format for the past week and getting rearended in my truck, this Thursday also happened to mark my one year anniversary with the Stroke Princess, Ms Grace.
As you also know, Thursday night is also the night that Princess Grace conducts Her hosted chat, Tease Time. There were congratulations and well wishes from lots of our friends, and those were most richly deserved by Princess, because honestly, I don't know how She was able to put up with me for a whole year without booting me to the curb for being too needy!
The chat went great, and Princess unveiled some new MP3s for our listening pleasure (or maybe I should say torment, because even the people who were able to touch themselves were still not allowed to cum).
The first two MP3s were written by Pantysue, "Worship Me" and "Helpless", and those were followed by 2 more written by Princess, "In Your Head" and "Stroke For Me" , which were both a new style MP3 from Stroke Princess Productions, with layers upon layers of Princess' voice, seducing, teasing, and hypnotic, all at the same time. I was listening in headphones, and I have to tell you that I went to bed that night with Her voice even more deeply embedded in my subconscious than it already was!
As more people came into the chatroom along the way, they were sent off to listen to the new MP3s by Princess, and when they returned after listening, you could tell even without physically seeing them, that they were kinda glazed over from the experience!
Miss Tara made a guest appearance in chat, which was deeply appreciated by me, because She has been a great friend during the past year, and was one of the first Mistresses at LDW who I met in what was then known as the "Women On Top" chatroom. Thank You for coming to the party, Miss Tara! I have to say that Miss Tara has left many a red paddle mark on my ass cheeks in the past year, and has one of the most endearing glares that you have ever seen!
I was hoping Ms Kate might stop in to visit, but She was busy with calls at the time and just couldn't make it. Ms Kate has been another longtime friend from LDW for the past year as well.
Ace came in to wish us well, all adorned in Ms Kate's shiny new CB3000. Ace was also sent to listen to the new MP3s and he was so moved that he was almost in tears when he returned after listening. Ace is a very sentimental guy, you know. He makes a great chocolate chip cookie too, I might add.
There were lots of other friends in the chatroom that night, Billybear, Krissi, Pantysue, Chaste, and lots of others who if I try to name every one of them, I'm sure to leave some out and offend them, so even if I didn't name you, thanks so much for coming to the party that night! Even Lucky Pet sent his regards, even though he couldn't make it to the chat.
The rest of the hour was spent in free form chat, with lots of teasing and tormenting from the Stroke Princess, much of it directed at us poor unfortunates who were caged and couldn't touch. Princess Grace was in great form, and in a great mood, which always spells "FUN" for anyone in Her path!
Now on to Saturday!
I was able to finally do a call with Princess on Saturday night! It had been a bit over a month since I had talked to Her, but I wanted to try and make the call as close to our Anniversary date as possible.
I'm not gonna go into it in a lot of detail, but we spent some time getting caught up. We laughed harder than we ever have together on a lot of stuff, and then, as She usually does, She sunk me into subspace with just a few words, and from there, it was on!
One of the areas that I feel comfy telling you all about is that since Princess feels like if I'm gonna be locked up for awhile, it would be a good thing to be milked every so often. So, out came my friend Anita Aneros, and she got popped in place and stayed in place for the remainder of the call. I have yet to be able to have an anal orgasm from Anita, but she was sure making me feel pretty good about things, helped out by the fact that Princess let me drizzle some lube into Her cage and get as much rubbing in as I could manage between the bars. Sorry Ace, I know you can't do this... hee hee
Then, Princess took me on one little fantasy trip after another, pushing my hot buttons and generally driving me out of my mind. I was almost to the edge from rubbing the cage, but was never quite able to get there because of the limited contact. This made it all the more frustrating for me. She had me sunk so deep that there was no light down there for me to see anymore. But then, because Princess knew I had a timelimit for the call, She shook me out of my mindfucking by telling me that we were gonna have to stop.
What??? What just happened??? I haven't even cum yet!
Awwww... poor baby.... you forget I still have your keys..... ::giggles::
I've found that when you are on a call with Princess Grace, and even though Saturday night was my 36th day in the cage, the act of cumming is secondary to just being with Her and talking to Her. I'm sure lots will probably disagree, but hey, that's the way I see it at least. If I was that worried about cumming during the call, there wouldn't have even been a call in the first place, because She has the cage keys, and I knew for a fact that I wasn't going to be cumming before the call was even made.
After that, Princess gave me some homework assignments, one of which was to spend the next hour milking with the Aneros. After that I was to do some looking around online for a g-spot vibrator and send Her the links so She could look at them and tell me what type to buy, because we're gonna be using it in the near future for milking purposes. Because of that, it sounds to me like I may be staying locked for awhile, so Chaste and Ace..... look out! Here I come again!
The rest of the homework is between Princess and I, so neener neener neener, once again! Maybe someday I'll tell you all what that's about.
Princess, thank You for another wonderful evening spent in Your presence! I won't be waiting so long before the next call, I promise! I can hardly wait to find out how some of the plans for me that You talked about are gonna come about!
See you all at the next Chat Event!
I sure do wuvs my Princess Grace!
little bitchass
P.S. Before I forget, a big Thank You goes out to everybody who has visited my blog this past year and put me over the 10000 visitors mark on the exact same day as my anniversary with Princess! I started this blog at Her suggestion, and that just makes the date all the more special to me!
This week has been a busy one for yours truly, and I still have a lot to do this weekend, but I just had to blog about a few things that happened on Thursday and Saturday nights!
If you've been following my postings recently, then you know that besides going to the experimental Jem-ku format for the past week and getting rearended in my truck, this Thursday also happened to mark my one year anniversary with the Stroke Princess, Ms Grace.
As you also know, Thursday night is also the night that Princess Grace conducts Her hosted chat, Tease Time. There were congratulations and well wishes from lots of our friends, and those were most richly deserved by Princess, because honestly, I don't know how She was able to put up with me for a whole year without booting me to the curb for being too needy!
The chat went great, and Princess unveiled some new MP3s for our listening pleasure (or maybe I should say torment, because even the people who were able to touch themselves were still not allowed to cum).
The first two MP3s were written by Pantysue, "Worship Me" and "Helpless", and those were followed by 2 more written by Princess, "In Your Head" and "Stroke For Me" , which were both a new style MP3 from Stroke Princess Productions, with layers upon layers of Princess' voice, seducing, teasing, and hypnotic, all at the same time. I was listening in headphones, and I have to tell you that I went to bed that night with Her voice even more deeply embedded in my subconscious than it already was!
As more people came into the chatroom along the way, they were sent off to listen to the new MP3s by Princess, and when they returned after listening, you could tell even without physically seeing them, that they were kinda glazed over from the experience!
Miss Tara made a guest appearance in chat, which was deeply appreciated by me, because She has been a great friend during the past year, and was one of the first Mistresses at LDW who I met in what was then known as the "Women On Top" chatroom. Thank You for coming to the party, Miss Tara! I have to say that Miss Tara has left many a red paddle mark on my ass cheeks in the past year, and has one of the most endearing glares that you have ever seen!
I was hoping Ms Kate might stop in to visit, but She was busy with calls at the time and just couldn't make it. Ms Kate has been another longtime friend from LDW for the past year as well.
Ace came in to wish us well, all adorned in Ms Kate's shiny new CB3000. Ace was also sent to listen to the new MP3s and he was so moved that he was almost in tears when he returned after listening. Ace is a very sentimental guy, you know. He makes a great chocolate chip cookie too, I might add.
There were lots of other friends in the chatroom that night, Billybear, Krissi, Pantysue, Chaste, and lots of others who if I try to name every one of them, I'm sure to leave some out and offend them, so even if I didn't name you, thanks so much for coming to the party that night! Even Lucky Pet sent his regards, even though he couldn't make it to the chat.
The rest of the hour was spent in free form chat, with lots of teasing and tormenting from the Stroke Princess, much of it directed at us poor unfortunates who were caged and couldn't touch. Princess Grace was in great form, and in a great mood, which always spells "FUN" for anyone in Her path!
Now on to Saturday!
I was able to finally do a call with Princess on Saturday night! It had been a bit over a month since I had talked to Her, but I wanted to try and make the call as close to our Anniversary date as possible.
I'm not gonna go into it in a lot of detail, but we spent some time getting caught up. We laughed harder than we ever have together on a lot of stuff, and then, as She usually does, She sunk me into subspace with just a few words, and from there, it was on!
One of the areas that I feel comfy telling you all about is that since Princess feels like if I'm gonna be locked up for awhile, it would be a good thing to be milked every so often. So, out came my friend Anita Aneros, and she got popped in place and stayed in place for the remainder of the call. I have yet to be able to have an anal orgasm from Anita, but she was sure making me feel pretty good about things, helped out by the fact that Princess let me drizzle some lube into Her cage and get as much rubbing in as I could manage between the bars. Sorry Ace, I know you can't do this... hee hee
Then, Princess took me on one little fantasy trip after another, pushing my hot buttons and generally driving me out of my mind. I was almost to the edge from rubbing the cage, but was never quite able to get there because of the limited contact. This made it all the more frustrating for me. She had me sunk so deep that there was no light down there for me to see anymore. But then, because Princess knew I had a timelimit for the call, She shook me out of my mindfucking by telling me that we were gonna have to stop.
What??? What just happened??? I haven't even cum yet!
Awwww... poor baby.... you forget I still have your keys..... ::giggles::
I've found that when you are on a call with Princess Grace, and even though Saturday night was my 36th day in the cage, the act of cumming is secondary to just being with Her and talking to Her. I'm sure lots will probably disagree, but hey, that's the way I see it at least. If I was that worried about cumming during the call, there wouldn't have even been a call in the first place, because She has the cage keys, and I knew for a fact that I wasn't going to be cumming before the call was even made.
After that, Princess gave me some homework assignments, one of which was to spend the next hour milking with the Aneros. After that I was to do some looking around online for a g-spot vibrator and send Her the links so She could look at them and tell me what type to buy, because we're gonna be using it in the near future for milking purposes. Because of that, it sounds to me like I may be staying locked for awhile, so Chaste and Ace..... look out! Here I come again!
The rest of the homework is between Princess and I, so neener neener neener, once again! Maybe someday I'll tell you all what that's about.
Princess, thank You for another wonderful evening spent in Your presence! I won't be waiting so long before the next call, I promise! I can hardly wait to find out how some of the plans for me that You talked about are gonna come about!
See you all at the next Chat Event!
I sure do wuvs my Princess Grace!
little bitchass
P.S. Before I forget, a big Thank You goes out to everybody who has visited my blog this past year and put me over the 10000 visitors mark on the exact same day as my anniversary with Princess! I started this blog at Her suggestion, and that just makes the date all the more special to me!
2007-09-20
Happy Anniversary, Princess Grace...
It's been one whole year since You found me. You took my bedraggled ass in and let me be Yours. It's been a wild ride wearing Your collar, and now I'm ready to get back on the ride and go again for another year! Think You can stand another year of me? LOL
I hope that we will continue as Mistress/pet/and best friends for many years to cum!
Thank You for a great year, Princess.. Your bitchass wuvs You!
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!
little bitchass
It's been one whole year since You found me. You took my bedraggled ass in and let me be Yours. It's been a wild ride wearing Your collar, and now I'm ready to get back on the ride and go again for another year! Think You can stand another year of me? LOL
I hope that we will continue as Mistress/pet/and best friends for many years to cum!
Thank You for a great year, Princess.. Your bitchass wuvs You!
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!
little bitchass
2007-09-19
OK, The Haiku Was Fun, But Dayum...
Let's take a break from the Haiku and change things up again! Today is Day 33 in the cage for me, and I need a change of pace just like y'all do. How about a little review from last night's Midnight Madness?
Princess Grace and Ms Kate were both in awesome moods last night! That always means trouble for somebody in the room. Last night it happened to be Ace, who had come in to show everybody the brand new CB3000 that Ms Kate had him locked up in. The Cookie Master himself was begging for more cookies by the time Ms Kate finished working him over. I didn't really feel too sorry for Ace, because even though Ms Kate was doing an awesome tease on him, I was smiling from ear to ear because.... welll... misery loves company! Add to that all the comfort that Princess was providing, and you can imagine what kind of condition he was in by the end of the night.
Pantysue came in the room, ready to hammer in nails with her clitty, courtesy of a little blue pill that the Stroke Princess required her to take. At least Pantysue was out of Princess' cage last night, which was a good thing because she might have split the cage right down the middle. The pill must have made Pantysue a little nervous, because she started to get a little bit of an uppity attitude with Princess, who told Pantysue near the end of the chat to take another pill, and instead of letting Pantysue call Her, Princess said She was gonna go to bed right after the chat and let Pantysue suffer through a two-pill night of frustration. Yes, Princess was in SUCH a mood!
I didn't escape very far either. Princess was working me over by first by making me tell everybody how many times I had cum yesterday (yes, it was zero, which coincidently was the same number of times I had cum in the last 32 days). Then She took a poll of the room, asking everybody else how many times THEY had been cumming lately. I noticed that Ace was pretty quiet during the poll and I don't recall him giving an answer. After that, She worked me out for awhile about our upcoming call, set for this weekend. She reminded me that She still had the keys to the cage, and said that instead, I should have plenty of ice available during the call. She didn't tell me what She had in mind, but what really started worrying me was when She started talking about Icyhot and Q-Tips. I wonder if the Stroke Princess will still be in the same mood by the time I get to call Her?
Then, Princess and Ms Kate teamed up to do a teasy stroke session for all of the people in the room who were fortunate enought to be able to stroke. All of us in the cages were told to dump some lube into the cages and rub them the best we could. The lube helped, and I was actually starting to get some really good feelings from my fingertips rubbing through the bars. Poor Ace... he has that CB3000 that doesn't have the big openings in it that my CB2000 does, so he was pretty much feeling NOTHING! Sorry Ace, but even though the CB3000 is a little bigger, as you can see, it DOES have it's disadvantages!
The rubbing continued, and I was starting to think that if it kept up feeling like it did, I might actually be able to cum. But just then, Ms Kate and Princess both said, almost in unison, "Hands off!". OMG no! Not nowwwwwwww! I was about ready to cry as I struggled to pull my hand away with my other hand. The only comfort I got was knowing that Princess would not have let me cum anyway.
And so, Midnight Madness was a blast, as it usually is, and I was surprised when the hour was up so soon and Princess left to do some sort of torture on somebody. Maybe She was making Pantysue take a third pill before Princess went off to tease somebody else!
As for me, I'm really looking forward to Thursday night, which will mark the one-year anniversary of the day Princess took me in as Her pet. It's been a wild year, and I hope I'll be here saying the same thing at this time next year!
And, in an incredible coincidence, I may reach the 10,000 reader mark for this blog on our anniversary as well! How cool would that be??? Not sure if it will happen or not, but it should get pretty close! This blog has been great fun for me, and I love the opportunity to play in it with all my friends, but I especially love doing it for Princess Grace, who suggested that I start one in the first place!
So I'm hoping to see all of you in Tease Time on Thursday night in the Chatroom to help Princess and I celebrate our Anniversary!
Princess, as always, Your jemjem wuvs You!
little bitchass
Let's take a break from the Haiku and change things up again! Today is Day 33 in the cage for me, and I need a change of pace just like y'all do. How about a little review from last night's Midnight Madness?
Princess Grace and Ms Kate were both in awesome moods last night! That always means trouble for somebody in the room. Last night it happened to be Ace, who had come in to show everybody the brand new CB3000 that Ms Kate had him locked up in. The Cookie Master himself was begging for more cookies by the time Ms Kate finished working him over. I didn't really feel too sorry for Ace, because even though Ms Kate was doing an awesome tease on him, I was smiling from ear to ear because.... welll... misery loves company! Add to that all the comfort that Princess was providing, and you can imagine what kind of condition he was in by the end of the night.
Pantysue came in the room, ready to hammer in nails with her clitty, courtesy of a little blue pill that the Stroke Princess required her to take. At least Pantysue was out of Princess' cage last night, which was a good thing because she might have split the cage right down the middle. The pill must have made Pantysue a little nervous, because she started to get a little bit of an uppity attitude with Princess, who told Pantysue near the end of the chat to take another pill, and instead of letting Pantysue call Her, Princess said She was gonna go to bed right after the chat and let Pantysue suffer through a two-pill night of frustration. Yes, Princess was in SUCH a mood!
I didn't escape very far either. Princess was working me over by first by making me tell everybody how many times I had cum yesterday (yes, it was zero, which coincidently was the same number of times I had cum in the last 32 days). Then She took a poll of the room, asking everybody else how many times THEY had been cumming lately. I noticed that Ace was pretty quiet during the poll and I don't recall him giving an answer. After that, She worked me out for awhile about our upcoming call, set for this weekend. She reminded me that She still had the keys to the cage, and said that instead, I should have plenty of ice available during the call. She didn't tell me what She had in mind, but what really started worrying me was when She started talking about Icyhot and Q-Tips. I wonder if the Stroke Princess will still be in the same mood by the time I get to call Her?
Then, Princess and Ms Kate teamed up to do a teasy stroke session for all of the people in the room who were fortunate enought to be able to stroke. All of us in the cages were told to dump some lube into the cages and rub them the best we could. The lube helped, and I was actually starting to get some really good feelings from my fingertips rubbing through the bars. Poor Ace... he has that CB3000 that doesn't have the big openings in it that my CB2000 does, so he was pretty much feeling NOTHING! Sorry Ace, but even though the CB3000 is a little bigger, as you can see, it DOES have it's disadvantages!
The rubbing continued, and I was starting to think that if it kept up feeling like it did, I might actually be able to cum. But just then, Ms Kate and Princess both said, almost in unison, "Hands off!". OMG no! Not nowwwwwwww! I was about ready to cry as I struggled to pull my hand away with my other hand. The only comfort I got was knowing that Princess would not have let me cum anyway.
And so, Midnight Madness was a blast, as it usually is, and I was surprised when the hour was up so soon and Princess left to do some sort of torture on somebody. Maybe She was making Pantysue take a third pill before Princess went off to tease somebody else!
As for me, I'm really looking forward to Thursday night, which will mark the one-year anniversary of the day Princess took me in as Her pet. It's been a wild year, and I hope I'll be here saying the same thing at this time next year!
And, in an incredible coincidence, I may reach the 10,000 reader mark for this blog on our anniversary as well! How cool would that be??? Not sure if it will happen or not, but it should get pretty close! This blog has been great fun for me, and I love the opportunity to play in it with all my friends, but I especially love doing it for Princess Grace, who suggested that I start one in the first place!
So I'm hoping to see all of you in Tease Time on Thursday night in the Chatroom to help Princess and I celebrate our Anniversary!
Princess, as always, Your jemjem wuvs You!
little bitchass
2007-09-18
There's Madness Tonight...
There's Madness tonight
at midnight in the chatroom.
Grace and Kate hold court!
Poor Ace in distress,
a shrinking cage, no way out
unmerciful tease.
Ms Kate will enjoy
Ace all squirmy and moaning,
Princess will giggle.
Bitchass is all smiles,
"Your time will come", Grace snickers.
Jem shuts her piehole.
So visit tonight,
teased to mush by Mistresses.
No cummies likely.
little bitchass
There's Madness tonight
at midnight in the chatroom.
Grace and Kate hold court!
Poor Ace in distress,
a shrinking cage, no way out
unmerciful tease.
Ms Kate will enjoy
Ace all squirmy and moaning,
Princess will giggle.
Bitchass is all smiles,
"Your time will come", Grace snickers.
Jem shuts her piehole.
So visit tonight,
teased to mush by Mistresses.
No cummies likely.
little bitchass
2007-09-17
2007-09-14
2007-09-12
2007-09-11
Twenty-five Days...
Twenty-five days now
Looking out through plastic bars
Held in cruel carress.
Hard cage unyielding
Never absent, I feel it
How long I wonder?
Good days and bad days
Long nights of sweet frustration
I need and I want.
Hating, but loving
Evil parasite in pink
I beg for release.
But if it's Your will
Cold embrace, I trudge onward
Submission is all.
little bitchass
Twenty-five days now
Looking out through plastic bars
Held in cruel carress.
Hard cage unyielding
Never absent, I feel it
How long I wonder?
Good days and bad days
Long nights of sweet frustration
I need and I want.
Hating, but loving
Evil parasite in pink
I beg for release.
But if it's Your will
Cold embrace, I trudge onward
Submission is all.
little bitchass
2007-09-10
My Blog Has Gotten Boring...
I was talking to billybear in an IM this morning, and I commented to him that my blog was becoming stale and boring. I think the major problem is that my posts are way too long, and people just don't have time to sit through all that, so I figure I need a way to shorten my posts and give them some flair so that more people might read them. Maybe it would help if I added lots of shiny pictures.
Billybear said that maybe I just needed a gimmick, and he suggested that I go with Haiku posts!
Genius!
What could be better than boiling a post down to 3 short lines of text? It would save me tons of time too. It would give me my "gimmick" and at the same time I wouldn't have to sit at the computer for hours composing blogposts that way!
Here's billybear's suggestion, using my last post as an example...
cage lock key dangles
open yes open no why
must I question it
See? Isn't that awesome? I think I'll try this out on my next post! Thanks, billybear!
If that doesn't help, I'll try the pictures...
little bitchass
I was talking to billybear in an IM this morning, and I commented to him that my blog was becoming stale and boring. I think the major problem is that my posts are way too long, and people just don't have time to sit through all that, so I figure I need a way to shorten my posts and give them some flair so that more people might read them. Maybe it would help if I added lots of shiny pictures.
Billybear said that maybe I just needed a gimmick, and he suggested that I go with Haiku posts!
Genius!
What could be better than boiling a post down to 3 short lines of text? It would save me tons of time too. It would give me my "gimmick" and at the same time I wouldn't have to sit at the computer for hours composing blogposts that way!
Here's billybear's suggestion, using my last post as an example...
cage lock key dangles
open yes open no why
must I question it
See? Isn't that awesome? I think I'll try this out on my next post! Thanks, billybear!
If that doesn't help, I'll try the pictures...
little bitchass
2007-09-09
OK, I Have Another One For Those Who've Been Locked Down... "In Or Out?"
I was writing a comment to a post in chaste4MsCass's blog earlier today, and while I was thinking how I was gonna word it, it gave me an idea for a new topic in my own blog. But first a little background...
Obviously, chaste is a chastity slave of Ms Cassandra's, and to be honest, I don't recall if he is being shared with Ms Sarah or not. The main topic of his post was that he was gonna be let out of the cage for some amount of time, and he was given some options. Chaste chose NOT to cum, and also chose not to be out of the cage for very long as well. He was a little concerned that people might not understand the reasons for his decision. To read chaste's original post, go here.
I understand his concerns, because I have some of the same concerns myself. I've been in two fairly extended lockdowns with The Stroke Princess, and each time Ms Grace and I are on a call and She's deciding what to do, She asks me flat out if I want to get out of the cage or if I want to stay locked up. This puts me in a quandary, because even though I may have been climbing the walls in desperation for weeks, wanting out of the cage in the worst way, when confronted with Her question, I'm not able to answer without going through a goddamn internal battle with myself.
She also has little variations to Her questions... like asking me if I think I'd rather cum once and then lock right back up, or if I'd like to just stroke a little and then lock back up without cumming. Or maybe have a ruined orgasm and then lock right back up. Again, these sound like easily answered questions, but after you have been locked up for awhile, being allowed to cum even once makes it more frustrating in the first week or two after getting locked back up. I think it's because you remember how good that one orgasm just felt and you want and want and want to feel it again. The jury is still out as far as I'm concerned on whether a ruined orgasm is worse than a full orgasm, because when it's ruined, you don't get the relief that a full orgasm provides.
The same battle goes on when She has had me out of the cage for a while. Even when I'm free of the cage, She does not let me cum at will. She maintains control and only lets me release when She tells me I can. After a week or two, I am badly missing the feeling of being in Her cage, and Princess knows it. The cage, even though it's inconvenient as hell most times, is a kind of security blanket for me, and I feel a definite void when I don't feel it between my legs. When Princess asks me if I want back in or not, I have another battle. I have one part of me telling me not to give in (remembering all the inconveniences and discomforts), while another part wants nothing more than to please Her and have that symbol of Her control locked onto me again.
And so what I think it all boils down to is a struggle between my primal side... the side that needs to feel the pleasure, and my subbie side, that wants to give my chastity to Princess Grace. As you can guess, my subbie side always wins this battle and I find myself begging Princess to please lock me back up. Is it crazy? To others it may seem to be, but I think I'm beginning to understand it a little better now, and I don't think it is.
OK.... now... let's get back to the original reason for my post today. I've just given you a glimpse of what I feel when asked point blank, "In or out?" I have a feeling that chaste feels similar internal battles going on. Maybe his thoughts are slightly different than mine, but it looks to me like he's been thinking hard about them.
So...... what I'm hoping by posting this is that some other chastised folks out there might weigh in on what they are feeling when asked the big question, "In or Out?" I'd like to see if these internal battles are happening with anybody else besides me. I'm not sure how many responses I'll get because I don't have a readership that includes large numbers of chastity boys and gurls, but we'll see....
Oh, did I tell you yet today that I wuvved my Stroke Princess? Well I do...
little bitchass
I was writing a comment to a post in chaste4MsCass's blog earlier today, and while I was thinking how I was gonna word it, it gave me an idea for a new topic in my own blog. But first a little background...
Obviously, chaste is a chastity slave of Ms Cassandra's, and to be honest, I don't recall if he is being shared with Ms Sarah or not. The main topic of his post was that he was gonna be let out of the cage for some amount of time, and he was given some options. Chaste chose NOT to cum, and also chose not to be out of the cage for very long as well. He was a little concerned that people might not understand the reasons for his decision. To read chaste's original post, go here.
I understand his concerns, because I have some of the same concerns myself. I've been in two fairly extended lockdowns with The Stroke Princess, and each time Ms Grace and I are on a call and She's deciding what to do, She asks me flat out if I want to get out of the cage or if I want to stay locked up. This puts me in a quandary, because even though I may have been climbing the walls in desperation for weeks, wanting out of the cage in the worst way, when confronted with Her question, I'm not able to answer without going through a goddamn internal battle with myself.
She also has little variations to Her questions... like asking me if I think I'd rather cum once and then lock right back up, or if I'd like to just stroke a little and then lock back up without cumming. Or maybe have a ruined orgasm and then lock right back up. Again, these sound like easily answered questions, but after you have been locked up for awhile, being allowed to cum even once makes it more frustrating in the first week or two after getting locked back up. I think it's because you remember how good that one orgasm just felt and you want and want and want to feel it again. The jury is still out as far as I'm concerned on whether a ruined orgasm is worse than a full orgasm, because when it's ruined, you don't get the relief that a full orgasm provides.
The same battle goes on when She has had me out of the cage for a while. Even when I'm free of the cage, She does not let me cum at will. She maintains control and only lets me release when She tells me I can. After a week or two, I am badly missing the feeling of being in Her cage, and Princess knows it. The cage, even though it's inconvenient as hell most times, is a kind of security blanket for me, and I feel a definite void when I don't feel it between my legs. When Princess asks me if I want back in or not, I have another battle. I have one part of me telling me not to give in (remembering all the inconveniences and discomforts), while another part wants nothing more than to please Her and have that symbol of Her control locked onto me again.
And so what I think it all boils down to is a struggle between my primal side... the side that needs to feel the pleasure, and my subbie side, that wants to give my chastity to Princess Grace. As you can guess, my subbie side always wins this battle and I find myself begging Princess to please lock me back up. Is it crazy? To others it may seem to be, but I think I'm beginning to understand it a little better now, and I don't think it is.
OK.... now... let's get back to the original reason for my post today. I've just given you a glimpse of what I feel when asked point blank, "In or out?" I have a feeling that chaste feels similar internal battles going on. Maybe his thoughts are slightly different than mine, but it looks to me like he's been thinking hard about them.
So...... what I'm hoping by posting this is that some other chastised folks out there might weigh in on what they are feeling when asked the big question, "In or Out?" I'd like to see if these internal battles are happening with anybody else besides me. I'm not sure how many responses I'll get because I don't have a readership that includes large numbers of chastity boys and gurls, but we'll see....
Oh, did I tell you yet today that I wuvved my Stroke Princess? Well I do...
little bitchass
2007-09-08
This Post Actually Started Out As A Comment To A Post In Pantysue's Blog...
But since I don't seem capable of writing short posts, I moved it here. I was wearing Princess' pink leather collar as I read Pantysue's post, and I just felt compelled to comment, not so much about her actual story, which was wonderful, but instead some thoughts on being collared. To see Pantysue's original post, you can read it in her blog.
I suppose I'll take some heat for this, but being collared still stands out to me as one of the most exciting aspects of a D/s relationship. And yes, I do realize that my relationship with my Stroke Princess is long distance and can never be total, no matter how much I wish for that to happen. So, all we can do is to try and make it as satisfying as possible for both parties.
On the spiritual side, the total surrender of all of yourself to your Domme must feel incredibly freeing and satisfying to the true sub.
On the physical side, the collar is symbolic and is a constant reminder to the sub of that surrender. It is also a sign to all who see it that you have been claimed.
Personally, one of my hot buttons is "the feeling of permanence"... going past the point of no return... the click of the lock when it closes on the chastity device... And so, I can only imagine the feelings that would run through me if I heard the click of a lock on the collar... surrendering the key... knowing that the once-removable symbol has now become "permanent"... That just takes the wearing of the collar to a whole new level, just like the difference that I felt when I went from holding my own keys to the CB2000 to when I gave the keys to Ms Grace.
Princess and I have talked a little about a locking collar in the future, but for now, I am happy wearing the one I have. If She ever decides to lock mine, I'll be happy too. Whatever works for Her works for me.
So, those are a few thoughts on a Saturday morning. Feel free to chime in if you have any constructive comments! Now, back to our regularly scheduled programming, which is worshipping my Stroke Princess.
little bitchass
But since I don't seem capable of writing short posts, I moved it here. I was wearing Princess' pink leather collar as I read Pantysue's post, and I just felt compelled to comment, not so much about her actual story, which was wonderful, but instead some thoughts on being collared. To see Pantysue's original post, you can read it in her blog.
I suppose I'll take some heat for this, but being collared still stands out to me as one of the most exciting aspects of a D/s relationship. And yes, I do realize that my relationship with my Stroke Princess is long distance and can never be total, no matter how much I wish for that to happen. So, all we can do is to try and make it as satisfying as possible for both parties.
On the spiritual side, the total surrender of all of yourself to your Domme must feel incredibly freeing and satisfying to the true sub.
On the physical side, the collar is symbolic and is a constant reminder to the sub of that surrender. It is also a sign to all who see it that you have been claimed.
Personally, one of my hot buttons is "the feeling of permanence"... going past the point of no return... the click of the lock when it closes on the chastity device... And so, I can only imagine the feelings that would run through me if I heard the click of a lock on the collar... surrendering the key... knowing that the once-removable symbol has now become "permanent"... That just takes the wearing of the collar to a whole new level, just like the difference that I felt when I went from holding my own keys to the CB2000 to when I gave the keys to Ms Grace.
Princess and I have talked a little about a locking collar in the future, but for now, I am happy wearing the one I have. If She ever decides to lock mine, I'll be happy too. Whatever works for Her works for me.
So, those are a few thoughts on a Saturday morning. Feel free to chime in if you have any constructive comments! Now, back to our regularly scheduled programming, which is worshipping my Stroke Princess.
little bitchass
2007-09-06
Well, I Was Gonna Wait For A While Longer Before Posting This...
But I needed something to get me out of my little Labor Day Weekend Funkathon, and what better way to do that than for me to talk about the One and Only Stroke Princess, my Mistress, Ms Grace? Seeeee? I'm feeling much better already!
The reason I wanted to wait to post this was to get just a little closer to a very special calendar date. If you will look at the lovely header on the top of my blog page, you'll see that September 20th, 2006 was the date that Princess Grace officially took me as Hers. Actually, I think She had already taken me a little while before this date, but since I can't seem to pinpoint the exact day, I decided to use the date of my first phonecall with Her as our official anniversary date.
I remember back in the first weeks after this happened, one of the things that I wanted most of all was Her assurance that I would still be Hers a year later. She told me to hush, and said that not only would I still be Hers a year later, but for many years after that as well. I don't think I can put into words just how good that made me feel.
It was about a week after officially becoming Hers, Princess also gave me a new name to use whenever I was in the chatroom. I became "jem_takenbyPrincessG", and I was so proud to be sporting Her name, because it was just like wearing a collar for Her in public.
And so the year passed slowly by. We talked on the phone... We chatted in IM... We emailed... I began this blog for Her... I sent Her prezzies and She sent me prezzies... The bond between us grew stronger and stronger... We became the closest of friends... We shared a lot of great times... We even shared a few unpleasant times, but going through those with Princess behind me made them seem not so bad after all.
In my time with Princess, we've done a lot of different types of play... from bondage, to spankings, to sissy challenges, to teasing and denial by the honor system, and now most recently I have been wearing Her CB2000 for Her whenever She decides it's time. As a matter of fact, as I write this I have been locked up for almost 3 weeks.
I've also been wearing the most lovely pink leather collar that Princess sent me as a symbol of Her ownership and of my submission to Her. Whenever I wear it, I get the most delicious feeling of closeness with Her, and I only wish I could wear it 24/7 for Her. Unfortunately, a pink leather collar, while beautiful to me, would not go over too well at my job, but Princess is very understanding of this and just wants me to wear it whenever I can. I'm wearing it now.
I'd like to think that I've gotten a lot stronger in the past year. Don't get me wrong, I am totally submissive to Ms Grace, but I'm not gonna let others walk all over me like I did when I first stuck my toes in the water here. I don't care what anybody else thinks anymore, because I'm happy with the way Princess does things. It works for me and that's why I keep calling Her. I think I've grown, and one thing is for sure, I have grown closer to Princess than I could ever have forseen just one year ago. I can only hope that Princess feels that same closeness too, but I believe in my heart that She does.
And so, we're only 2 short weeks away from our Anniversary, and I have been busy buying some prezzies for Her and anticipating making a call that weekend. The actual Anniversary falls on a Thursday night, and so I'm thinking that Tease Time on that night will be a hell of a lot of fun for me. I've really been looking forward to this date for months now, and I am totally squirming in my chair now that it's almost here!
To my wonderful Stroke Princess Ms Grace, I can't wait for the next few weeks to hurry by so I can officially tell You again how much this past year has meant to me. You have been the most awesome, most amazing, most exciting, Mean Cockteasing Mindfucktress Bitch Mistress and Spoiled Princess that I've ever met, and I am so happy to be Yours! Thank You so much for finding me and taking me into Your possession! You are SO very special to me!
I wuv You!
Your little bitchass
But I needed something to get me out of my little Labor Day Weekend Funkathon, and what better way to do that than for me to talk about the One and Only Stroke Princess, my Mistress, Ms Grace? Seeeee? I'm feeling much better already!
The reason I wanted to wait to post this was to get just a little closer to a very special calendar date. If you will look at the lovely header on the top of my blog page, you'll see that September 20th, 2006 was the date that Princess Grace officially took me as Hers. Actually, I think She had already taken me a little while before this date, but since I can't seem to pinpoint the exact day, I decided to use the date of my first phonecall with Her as our official anniversary date.
I remember back in the first weeks after this happened, one of the things that I wanted most of all was Her assurance that I would still be Hers a year later. She told me to hush, and said that not only would I still be Hers a year later, but for many years after that as well. I don't think I can put into words just how good that made me feel.
It was about a week after officially becoming Hers, Princess also gave me a new name to use whenever I was in the chatroom. I became "jem_takenbyPrincessG", and I was so proud to be sporting Her name, because it was just like wearing a collar for Her in public.
And so the year passed slowly by. We talked on the phone... We chatted in IM... We emailed... I began this blog for Her... I sent Her prezzies and She sent me prezzies... The bond between us grew stronger and stronger... We became the closest of friends... We shared a lot of great times... We even shared a few unpleasant times, but going through those with Princess behind me made them seem not so bad after all.
In my time with Princess, we've done a lot of different types of play... from bondage, to spankings, to sissy challenges, to teasing and denial by the honor system, and now most recently I have been wearing Her CB2000 for Her whenever She decides it's time. As a matter of fact, as I write this I have been locked up for almost 3 weeks.
I've also been wearing the most lovely pink leather collar that Princess sent me as a symbol of Her ownership and of my submission to Her. Whenever I wear it, I get the most delicious feeling of closeness with Her, and I only wish I could wear it 24/7 for Her. Unfortunately, a pink leather collar, while beautiful to me, would not go over too well at my job, but Princess is very understanding of this and just wants me to wear it whenever I can. I'm wearing it now.
I'd like to think that I've gotten a lot stronger in the past year. Don't get me wrong, I am totally submissive to Ms Grace, but I'm not gonna let others walk all over me like I did when I first stuck my toes in the water here. I don't care what anybody else thinks anymore, because I'm happy with the way Princess does things. It works for me and that's why I keep calling Her. I think I've grown, and one thing is for sure, I have grown closer to Princess than I could ever have forseen just one year ago. I can only hope that Princess feels that same closeness too, but I believe in my heart that She does.
And so, we're only 2 short weeks away from our Anniversary, and I have been busy buying some prezzies for Her and anticipating making a call that weekend. The actual Anniversary falls on a Thursday night, and so I'm thinking that Tease Time on that night will be a hell of a lot of fun for me. I've really been looking forward to this date for months now, and I am totally squirming in my chair now that it's almost here!
To my wonderful Stroke Princess Ms Grace, I can't wait for the next few weeks to hurry by so I can officially tell You again how much this past year has meant to me. You have been the most awesome, most amazing, most exciting, Mean Cockteasing Mindfucktress Bitch Mistress and Spoiled Princess that I've ever met, and I am so happy to be Yours! Thank You so much for finding me and taking me into Your possession! You are SO very special to me!
I wuv You!
Your little bitchass
2007-09-02
Well, Here In The U.S.A., It's Labor Day Weekend...
First, let me wish everyone a Happy Holiday, and I hope the 3 day weekend is doing you all a lot of good!
Three days off, an extra day to relax and have fun, right? So why the fuck am I in such a funk? I had planned on doing some serious writing in the blog this weekend, but I just can't seem to get any inspiration to write, and honestly, right now I don't even have the desire to try to push through it, or even do much of anything in general.
Today is Day 16 in the cage, but I don't think that's a factor. I've gone much longer than this before.
Before anybody gets worried, I'll be OK, I'm just venting in here to try and do something radical to shake myself out of this. Hopefully it'll work and I'll salvage tomorrow. Then, y'all will have to put up with another long and boring blogpost, so enjoy this funk while you can!
little bitchass
First, let me wish everyone a Happy Holiday, and I hope the 3 day weekend is doing you all a lot of good!
Three days off, an extra day to relax and have fun, right? So why the fuck am I in such a funk? I had planned on doing some serious writing in the blog this weekend, but I just can't seem to get any inspiration to write, and honestly, right now I don't even have the desire to try to push through it, or even do much of anything in general.
Today is Day 16 in the cage, but I don't think that's a factor. I've gone much longer than this before.
Before anybody gets worried, I'll be OK, I'm just venting in here to try and do something radical to shake myself out of this. Hopefully it'll work and I'll salvage tomorrow. Then, y'all will have to put up with another long and boring blogpost, so enjoy this funk while you can!
little bitchass
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